A need to finish...

For some reason, I have a need to finish things. I was determined to finish the Jaywalkers, which had been hanging around since October. Then yesterday, I saw my broadripple sock sitting there, 3/4 done. I picked it up and finished it last night. Today I will cast on for its mate. Warning: disgusting yarn colors below

I have no excuse for this yarn except it was the only color the yarn shop had 2 balls of! I like to call it clown vomit...although, if you stretch your imagination, you might be able to call it hot air balloon....or you might not :-)

I like the feel of this sock in Fixation. It made a sock that is a bit heavier than I would normally wear, but the cotton and spandex feel really good on my feet. Maybe the will become house socks, but I think they will fit in my Danskos.

So I am not sure why I have this need to finish things. It is almost like the nesting instinct when you are pregnant and about to deliver. I just have to get things done. I had to finish the broadripple sock even though it has been sitting there for months. I had to rip back a couple of projects that I know I am not going to finish at this point. I have to finish the pinwheel sweater. I have to clean out my daughter's room, even though she left over a month ago and I had no need to clean it out.

And there are longer range things that I feel a need to do. I have always wanted to go to Italy..to Venice, to be exact. I have not gone for a couple of reasons, mostly because I am afraid to fly. And understand, I am not afraid of heights, I am not claustrophobic. I know (or at least think I know) that whatever plane I get on will not reach its destination. Which is completely absurd because I have flown before (medicated lol) and the plane obviously makes it to its destination. But now, I want to go to Italy now, I want to go to Vegas to see my nieces and nephews now. Things I have said "someday", or "I wish" or "if only" about, I suddenly need to do now.

I am guessing this is all part of working through the multitude of emotions I have been feeling. A month ago I would have said..I'll get to it, I'll do it someday. Today, I think...what if someday never comes?